no one but me and my socks.

can you believe that i keep getting stopped when i'm in eyelash whore make-up and asked, ARE YOU LADY GAGA? no offence to lady gaga or the twats who keeps asking but, no, i'm sure lady gaga has better things to  be doing then looking for the ride on a wednesday in trinity rooms.

do you like my new socks?

knee high grey knits. - they were a euro and socks are always welcome in my cold house!

look at whose pulling a moody one! a strop if you will. i got left behind this weekend while everyone i know went to dublin. fuck em all! i'm having a better time here. if i keep saying that it might actually ring true at some point. well, going for cocktails tonight. just a little bit miffed that i have tried everything i possibly could to get to dublin this weekend and everything failed. feeling a bit like no one loves me. is there anyone out there who loves me? answers on a postcard. i'm going to go amuse myself with a rhianna cd and some make-up. will post finished bored look on post.

I LOVE this t-shirt!!!!!!

i want this top
found this t-shirt on someone's blog today. i forgot the name of the blogger - please message me and tell me if this is yours as i forgot and will credit you, but is this not the funniest t-shirt? 

miss penny dreadful. last wednesday night

i love working with make-up. it rocks. also to be in the situations i am to create such crazy looks
a bad photo of your blogger heading out to a nu rave night on wed last week. i have a new obession with eyelashes underneath the eye. i think it kinda makes a welcome change. i look so different right? loving my massive quiff and unusually long hair!

die mother fucker die.

as you know i have posted details about the rihanna and chris brown incident before. being completely against violence towards women i feel really strongly about this. very strong. i have unfortunatly experienced being hit by a boyfriend and this story just breaks my heart. she is a young girl, in a long term relationship in love, happy, gorgeous and her boyfriend did this to her :

Christopher B and Robyn F have been involved in a dating relations for approx 1 and half year. On Sunday Feb 8 at 25 hours Brown was driving a vehicle with Robyn F as the front passenger on an unknown street in Los Angeles. Robin F picked brown,s cellular phone and picked up a three-page text message from a woman Brown had had a previous relationship with.

"A verbal argument ensued and Brown pulled a vehicle over in an unknown street. Reach over Robyn F with his right hand and open the car door and attempted to force her out. Brown was unable to force Robyn F out of the vehicle because she was wearing a seat belt. When he could not force her to exit he took his right hand and shoved her head against the passenger window of the vehcile causing an approx 1 inch raised circular contusion.

"Robyn F turned to face Brown and punched her in the left eye with right hand. He then drove away in the vehicle and continued to punch her in the face with his right hand while steering the vehicle with his left hand. The assault caused Robyn F Osmouth to fill with blood and blood to splatter all over her clothing and the interior of the vehicle. Brown looked at Robyn F and stated "I am going to beat the s–t out of you when we get home! You wait and see!?

"Robyn F picked her cellular phone and called her personal assistant Jennifer Rosales. Rosales did not answer the telephone but while her vm greeting was playing Robyn F pretended to talk to her and stated "I am on my way home. Make sure the cops are there when I get there? (this statement was made while greeting was playing and was not captured) after Robyn f faked the call, Brown and looked at her and stated, 'You just did the stupidest thing ever! Now I really am going to kill you.'

"Brown resumed punching Robyn F and she interlocked her fingers behind her head and brought her elbows forward to protect her face. She then bent over at the waist placing her elbows and face near her lap and in attempt to protect her face and head from the barrage of punches being levied by Brown. Brown continued to punch Robyn F on her left arm and hands, causing her to suffer a contusion on her left triceps that was approx 2 inches in diameter and numerous contusions on her left hand. Robyn f attempted to send another text message to other personal assistant Melissa Ford. Brown snatched the cellular telephone out of her hand and threw it out of the window to an unknown street. Brown continued driving and Robyn F observed his cellular phone in his lap. She picked up the cellular phone with her left hand, and before she could make a call, he placed her in a head lock with right hand and continued to drive the vehicle with his left hand.

"Brown held Robyn F close to him and bit her on her left hear. She was able to feel the vehicle swerving from right to left as Brown sped away. He stopped the vehicle in front of [address] and Robyn F turned off the car removed the key from inignition and sat on it. Brown did not know what she did with the key and began punching her in the face and arms. Brown began applying pressure to Robyn F left and right carotid arteries causing her to be unable to breath. She began to lose consciousness. She reached up with her left hand and began to attempting to gauge his eyes in attempt to flee herself. Brown bit her left ring and middle fingers and released her. While brown continued to punch her she turned around a place her back to against the passenger door. She brought her knees to her chest and placed her feet against Brown,s body and began pushing him away.

"Brown continued to punch her on legs and feet causing several contusions. Robyn F began screaming for help. And Brown exited the vehicle and walked away. A resident in the neighbor heard Robyn F,s plea for help and called 911, causing a police response. An investigation was conducted and Robyn F was issued a domestic violence protective order (EPO). Affiant conducted an interview with Melissa Ford who advised on Feb. 8 2009 at 2500 hours she received a phone call from Robin F from an unknown telephone number later identified as the telephone number of Officer Chavez. Robin F had advised Ford that she had been assaulted by Brown. At approx at 1 am Brown called Ford as nothing happened. Ford advised Brown that she had already talked to Robin F and was aware of what happened. Ford had advised brown that the neighbors had called police and that they were with Robyn F. Brown had asked Ford if robin F had provided police with his name. And ford advised him that she had. Brown hung up the telephone and did not call back.

"On Feb. 8, Brown turned himself in and was given a copy of the EPO and advised to not contact Robyn.

"On Feb. 17 Ford advised the affiant that she had received text messages from … a number that Ford recognized as belonging to Brown. In the text message Brown apologized for what he had done to Robin F. and advised Ford he was going to get help."

right. i think what we all need to do is support her. boycott his career, don't buy his cds, don't listen to radio playing his music, turn off mtv when it's on, refuse to listen. send the message that this abuse will not be tolerated. and hopefully more people will see that this is just not right. support this poor woman. god love her. and fingers crossed the fucker goes down with the two felones he is charged with. i hope he does time. i hope he rots. burn fucker. your dead. your career is over. rot. 

i just feel so strongely about this. having been through violence from a boyfriend before it's horrible. i just hope more women feel they can come forward and get support. 

so please. boycott. show him how you feel

can i get an amen?

this is my costume for the trash drag thing tonight. what you can't see is my tutu, my nun uniform, my leopard print tights and blue shoes. but they are there i assure you. tonight is all about raising money for the lgbt so we can have a float in the pride parade next year. so as i am co hosting it tonight, i decided to go shocking. well, more shocking then ever!

can i get an amen?

are there any sisters in the house tonight?

i am all excited as the rabbit will be there, or they said! which means knowin my luck, he wont be. but, all else fails. there may be some other entertainment. skrboi told me definatly wont be there. but that doesn't bother me as he is getting annoying anyway! gooooood!

i can't breathe through all this make-up. irritating!

beautiful and dirty rich!

working late on my presentation for the talk thing in london. got a book made of my fashion influences from last season - have yet to make one for this season - gulp - but, realised, while i may count myself as a total 80's whore bag. my clothing influences from last season were actually totally 70's. 

i did love a good pvc legging, metallics, sequins, clutch handbags, head pieces and a nice faux fur jacket. seem to have gone off my idea of a faux fur jacket now, as we move into spring summer, i am favouring a denim version of my leather jacket. nice and punk. but restricting as you can't wear it with other denim. still though. the likelyhood of me wearing denim jeans is not high so, 

but the celebrity side of my book was interesting, spring summer 08 was full of agyness deyn as she was my style muse at the time. but alt/wint 08 was full to brim with, daisy lowe and the other britonista brat pack children, (jamie winstone, pixie geldoff, the usual) 

interesting, there seems to be something about daisy, not sure what though. 

so my predictions and inspirations for this season?

1 - florals. for spring. ground breaking. but florals went from ditsy print to serious and now are going full impact for this season. love it.

2 - sorbet pastel colors - this is one trend i cannot get away with as i am waaaaay too pale. but i do love the look. just cant wear it.

3- electric blue - anything crazy bright. love this, and i can wear it. 

4 - head pieces - look at luella spring summer, every single model had a head piece on them. all of them. most with a cute net print on them.

5 - muted metallics - not as high impact as before but looking at topshop unique's show it seems to be quieter and more understated as a fabric color choice.

6 - fringing - this to me is only acceptable on accessories. on shoes or bags. nothing else. can be a bit tacky.

things i will never promote :

1- the peblum dress - not my first time complaining about this mess of a dress. get it the fuck away from me! i don't care who is wearing it

2 - nautical - sick of this. only commenting on this because there was a navy and white sequinned top with a red boat doing the high street rounds lately - get it off!

3 - colored leopard print - leopard print i loves, but the colored stuff looks fucking tacky. dirty mangy tacky. go away fearne cotton with your pink leopard skinnies you skinny bitch!!!!

4 - the hello kitty for mac range - i know this is make-up but i am putting my heeled foot down. i hate this range. the colors are weak and the stuff doesnt look great on. look magazine reported this week about the hot pink lipstick. well, i can safetly say - i dunno what lipstick they used in the photo, but it's not that one. i have this lipstick and it's nice but it only looks amazing when teamed over another. i like to team it with morange to get a fluoro clashing effect. but, seriously, if your looking for high impact. not the best range to invest in.

right, i've been up all night. it's bloody snowing outside. i'm surprisingly not freezing. but i am starving so must see if i can snaffle some food from my bare cupboard. i think i have a tin of tuna but no tin opener. hard times. recession tuna!!!!!!!!!

please god will my insomnia never end!

fashion as a competitive sport

time for today's round of fashion kids!

god knows i love a good playsuit so it's just what comes naturally to me that i am loving this metallic leotard. would so team this with, well, it goes with fuck all but, i still loves it. it's from topshop (where else?) and cost about 35 euro. mine.

boots from office. now, the color is shite, i'll freely admit that. but keep in mind they come in an amazing bright blue number too. so worth the 80 pound asking price. and a peep toe? how could anyone say no to you?

this bag is a big regret of mine. a regret that i didn't buy it when i had the chance (aka money) and i walked away. its so cute and comes in navy too from urban outfitters.

these shoes are from faith. cuteeeeeeee.....xxxxx.....60 pounds. want.

it's a sad life when your broke!!!!

offences of the vest

topshop - what are you up to? marks and spencers have a grey and pink version of this exact vest. marks and spencers i ask you!!!! the only thing right about them is their food. i expect this tat to be gone when i next log on. thank you.

DON'T EVER TRUST BOYS. a rant.

- my costume for thursday minus the make-up. but the general jist of round 1's outfit

Well, it turns out that the more i have reviewed the situation, the better i feel. looking back at the disaster that was saturday night, i feel so much better. your man was a loser. total loser.

the more i think about the night as a whole the more i want to laugh hysterically and pat myself on the back for having such bad taste!!!!! what. a . freak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ha ha ha!!!!!

so eventful day. this morning came such bad news via email that this blogger wandering into college in complete shock. it took two hours and two chocolate bars and a sprite to calm me down. i can't reveal the news online but it was as bout as shocking as it gets. i was gobsmacked. but however it did bring to a close something which has been festering all year. so thank god thats over.

then , just as i had made up my mind to emigrate to new york in search of the holy grail of jobs, there came more news via letter - i got an interview in london for a fashion course. course, i had long given up on my dream to do fashion, i had written it off as something that would never happen. so imagine my complete and utter shock to discover - i got an interview. for april.

there are no words!

so outfits must be scouted.

i apologise about the lack of fashion and photos on the blog of late but i have been unable to upload lately so will sort that out!

thursday night is looking good. i have the girls assembled and a fab costume. due to our intervention by the college priest (it's an LGBT night out and he covers our poster with his about prayer) I have decided the only way forward is, to come out on stage dressed as a nun.

yes, a nun,

a pvc nun with a neon green tutu underneath.  no one said i wasn't fair! it's an acknowledgement. course, ill cash my check first, i need the money. I attempted to eat the worlds biggest pizza this evening so hopefully my ass wont look as dire as i think it's going to. now if i could get a penis for under the skirt.......!!!! what? it's a drag show!!!!!

getting seriously bummed out about being single. i know it's the right thing for me to be single right now. as i'm moving in three months, but i can't help feeling a little bit bummed out.  a huge part of me wished i had someone with me this morning to help me when i was freaking out about the news, literally the news, but then, curled up watching DVDs tonight i just thought. you know what? if i had stayed with notorious p.i.g or the badger, i would be under more stress as i know i have to leave them. so i suppose this is the right thing.

i don't want to be alone. but to move forward in my life and not look back, i have to be.

although, a temp boyfriend/girlfriend would be nice! you know, rent a cunt/knob. not saying fuck buddy so to speak but someone bland i could date and kiss on a night out and then hang out with. someone not special enough to love or want to keep!!!!!

right, this is it. i am making a pact. I WILL NOT HAVE A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP UNTIL I AM 25 AND OLD. I WILL ONLY ENGAGE IN KISSING OR SHAGGING AROUND. I WILL BE A HORRIBLE SLAG.

nice.

keep reminding myself i don't want to go out with anyone. i don't want a boyfriend. i want someone. i mean there are waaaaaay too people i have on my list ----- oooh that's it! I'LL COMPLETE MY LIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 -  the rabbit : totally a ladies man. but has expressed an interest in this lady. bonded over our love of strawberry chewing gum

2 - sk8rboi : can't figure out if he sees me as a mate or a date. he keeps play hitting me. in a manly fashion but then talks to me about girls. oh god, he so sees me as one of the lads!

3 :the pirate : Has expressed interest in me returning to london as he is stuck there. is asking me lots of questions about visiting london. and him. fuck off you. your taken.......

that's all i can think of since i recently found out that mr saturday night is an asshole. that is actually going to go down in the history of my dates as the worse date i have ever been on. full stop. my god what a dick. if any of my friends are reading this, give us a call. you have to hear how awful this bloke is!!!!

i'll say one thing, men who are pretty are dim and uninteresting. why? because they never had to develop a personality. ever. so they are pretty dam stupid!!!!!!

oh and FYI ?

good luck over the next course of eighteen years, your going to need it!

where are all the good men gone?

where. are . all . the . good .men. gone?

seriously. following the recent disapointment that was saturday night. i was faced with shocking choices. which i ended up just giving up on and heading home. alone. 

turns out my current object of er, unaffection, was indeed another one of those men, lier, totally cocky, but a complete waster. mother of!

i am just glad he managed to prove it this weekend. so i can fuck off and find something else to be interested in! i had a lucky escape. it also reminds me how much i hate pills. a lot. i was just like this fucking has to be a joke. it can't be real. i can't believe this.

i looked hot. you know how i know? because i had a backless black dress on, hot make-up and i also got hit on, a lot. by so many people. all night. however most of them were losers. 

although sk8rboi was out. had a giggle together. i made the wrong choice in leaving the conversation when i did. it's the first time in ages ive seen him out too. miss penny was totally overwhelmed.

and a little bit sore this morning.

that's it. this weeks for working - then the following week is rag week. during which i will be going out like crazy. 

i have to remain single. i have to rememeber to remain single. i will leave this country alone. i can't fall in love - which doesn't exsist anyway - but, i think i can stay ok. i can't meet anyone fantastic. because if i do then it means i might ended up wanting to stay. get these people away from me. and thank god i met your man last night because they don't come bigger losers then that. holy shit i had a lucky escape.

so you know what, i would like to be asked out on an old school date. something were your not getting wasted in a pit dancing. i want to be asked out to dinner and the cinema, sharing a hip flask in the back, popcorn, then a quiet drink after for chats. that does not sound crazy. i just wish that things weren't so complicated. it's nice sometimes to do simple things. but i know what i come across as, and this is prob not going to be on the menu anytimes soon.

but as long as i know this.

it's fine

i'm only mildly heartbroken right?

COME BACK DECENT MEN! ALL IS FORGIVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHERE HAVE YOU ALL GONE???????????????????????????

AND MORE IMPORTANTLY, CAN I COME???????????!!!!!!!!!!